WHAT HAPPENED????

988 with me the whole mid-night. Money not enough use also,finding part time job to earn money. Academic writing makes me cannot breath already. WHAT HAPPENED in this month???? I HATE SEMESTER BREAK!!!! NO MONEY USE!!! FINAL ASSIGNMENT!!!! PRESENTATION!!!!! EXAM!!!!!! @.@ AHHHHHHH~~~~~ I am getting mad already....... Can you give me a really break??? I really need it. Feel wanna cry here, I need your hug and shoulder. Do you know that? Can you cry with me like last time? Do you remember that moment you were crying with me? T_____T

Killed by ACADEMIC WRITING!!!!!

Academic writing, presentation,exam killing me now.... The stress makes me always dream scary dream and cannot sleep well.... The stress makes my hormone mess up... The stress makes me got a lot pimples... The stress makes my hair fall like i get cancer... The stress makes me always fall sick... The stress makes me wanna kill myself... ＨＥＬＰ　ＭＥ！！！！T_____T...

Feel better a lot!!! ＹＥＡＨ！！！～

Have a nice day and happy day here. Woke up 9 today. After washed up myself then walked to class. Although wore not very nice but when i stepped out my darkness hades, I saw the sun was smiling to me. The blue sky said hello to me. The wind gave me a morning kiss. That moment I felt I really enter a wonderful world and no worries. I brought my smile to class today, very happy in class and I am back. The noisy and talkative Binbin is back. I laughed a lot in class today. My classmate thought I was crazy. Until now got Raymond accompany me...THANKS RAYMOND!!!

Memories~

Wind blowing outside. Leaves singing and dancing there. 988 with me and Jane. Talked back our childhood and the memories in our mind. That was a sad memories, she cried. I gave her a piece of tissue and she wipe it. I opened my friends picture and tell her about them. I type [ jee....] and press enter. And told Jane he gt pimples already. This is his mum and so on... Keep clicking next next... And tell her about his story. The tear wet my eyes. I said stop we go see other people one. After that, we continue our story. I had a happy and good childhood , i miss it and wanna back too. Jane said she don't want. I understand her situation . Everyone has their own background , although my background not that bad and my tear wet my eyes again. Finished the story, we talked about our EX and boyfriends. I asked Jane "I still don't understand why he treat me like that. For you, do you think the problem is came out from you?" She answered me " That passed! no one will know, he is the only one will know. For me, I don't think I was wrong last time." My mind keep coming out his picture again, almost one month already. How is him now? Does him take care of himself? Does him fall sick again? I saw him last time I really wish to be with him. My heart really felt pain that time. OVER ALWAYS IS OVER!!!! He won't remember the memories of us anymore...........................

Sick again!!!!

"knock knock" "knock knock"... Alarm clock cannot woke me up this morning.Jane woke me up and she was ready to go her class... Toby and Joyce din't go class too. Everyone sicked in the hot cold weather. And me too... HEADACHE!!!! HEADACHE!!!! SORE THROAT !!!! SORE THROAT!!! and now FLU already. HA Chu!!! Ha Chu!!! =S but still need to rush the academic writing. Force myself to finish half set today... The door locked. I locked myself in the darkness room again. Alice bring me to wonderland again.....

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Headache!!!! Headache!!! Study skill haven finish... Went to 7-eleven , bought fish ball and fried sausage bread... Same!!! Din't change at all...still like sausage... I step out the darkness room and try to get well better...Daddy and mummy gave me energy this afternoon, they gave me to support from the heart... I stood under the coconut tree with the light, the wind blow to me i closed my eyes...enjoy the feel without stress there... look up to the sky, the stars smile with me. No car on the road. Everyone is sleeping with the dream. In street 18, saw a guy with his desktop. He looks stress and without cloth. The street without any voice, listened to the leaves singing under the dark black blue sky. The cat was looking at me in the brushwood and I enter the "wonderland" again!!!

Say hello to natural n__n!!!

When having figure exam!!! =(

OMG!!! I was lated to woke up this morning... Feel empty and sat on my bed...What the stupid feeling again... My leg feel better alot...hehehe can walk better... Walked to class saw one old man and a beautiful and look like very peace lady manikin there... I found a place and sat down... CK and Ivan came and fixed the DAVID manikin...Haiz super tired and moody to draw there... Listened to 988 this time...A lady DJ said teenager should not drink alot of alcohol and it will influence our brain and will makes us easier to forget thing...That time i though about him that he told me he easier to forget thing and he drunk alot of alcohol too...=3=... WHAT THE????? I hate to draw DAVID's hair lah...really want to help him cut to botak already...TT

Manikin DAVID...T_____T

CRYING NOW!!! T_____T

I am in FB now. Click back to home, i saw his picture there. My naughty finger go and click in and i view his picture...T___T....Wow my tear dropping very fast. I saw his face got alot of pimples already. Is it very stress in study? Sometimes i will ask myself , how are you now? Is it everything ok? The heart still cannot let go, mind still thinking about him. Housemate Alex asked me to delete his FB and MSN... But i din't because i still miss him, and i told myself maybe he will find me back.. No one know... But i sure he won't because too understand his temper already. Raymond keep comfort me.. thanks alot... Listening the fan tuning silently, my mind none stop thinking about him... I really tried my best to forget him... May god bring me out...

HAPPY ＦＡＭＩＬＹ！！！＾＿＿＿＿＾

The earth rotates the sun... Time passed so fast... Fee sis went back to San Francisco and Yin sis going back soon at 530pm. Cannot say goodbye to them. Even face to face have a last dinner also don't have... When i was born they always take care about me little sister here. Although always scolded me, but now even talk also less. Because everyone go different places to study, assignment a lot... Cannot back hometown to accompany them, is it arranged by god? When we still can meet? When we still can sleep on the same bed? When we can talk about secret? When we still can play hug hug? When we still can cook together? One year later? Two year? Three year? or Four year?

I think i am there already. Time is separating us... T____T...I will miss you all here...

HAPPY FAMILY ^___^

BLUR @__@

Came back from church... I start my life and try to go church... Enjoy the moment in church... It make me feel without worries and stress there... Leg still pain,haven get well yet. But today no mood and feel out of confident. Didn't pay attention in church, worry many thing there... Tomorrow need to take figure exam...So i practiced CK asked us to draw the 3 portrait, suddenly feel like wanna see his facebook... i typed his name and press ‘ ENTER'. When i get in, my tear like two small river flow down from my eyes on my face... Why i still so stupid? Why i still want to miss him... Even my sister asked me who is him, i said don't bother just read what i wrote... Everyday when i feel emo , his picture came out from my mind and those happy , sweet memories make me cried again. Go out accompany my housemate take dinner in 'Ming Tian', the cars came forward me and i feel like wanna close my eyes and walk on the road. But luckly Jane pull me back. What happened to me , on the way home, i said to jane : "i feel like stand on top of the tower there." STRESS here!!! I just want some one to hug and borrow his shoulder to me. Why no one here can do this to me?