I saw a guy and i danced with him...

I went to Opera last night, I saw a guy then we danced together. He looks like him, and I suddenly miss him again. The feeling now I have I wish the time stop and go back to last time. The thunder non stop outside. Listening to my god sister playing piano. Heart break and very miss you here, Why you want to treated me that. Time really passed so fast almost 4 month already I still can't totally put you down. How are you now? I wish you understand my feeling here. I don't wish you to hate me because of that penang trip with them, I really did nothing there. But the heart and mouth are yours what you like to talk bad about me and hate me I just can say nothing here... Wish you good luck and take care.

Finally sick here...

Mummy take care me the whole night. And went to see doctor already. Although no more fever but still flu here. Can't slept well the whole night, my sister jing... I am so admired her,she can slept until the thief came in the house also won't wake up...== So wish got people hug me last night.. The whole body pain and super headache.. Hate sick here and hate eat medicine... Why my healthy so weak? I don't wan to sick anymore... TT Thanks everyone so caring me, I will get well as fast as possible love you all guys here ya..

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Stop thinking you anymore...

You really hurt my broken heart... You really did a lot of things made the world to hate you... How come I so stupid went to helped you to explain to them... You said they betrayed you, but the person who betrayed one is me ok? What you did, please ask back yourself,think it back. How you treat me? How you hurt me? How you betrayed me? How you break my broken heart again? Think it back and the anti-you to wake up.. Stop doing that... But what I had said and told you, you won't listen anymore. You made me cried three days three night, you know how hurt my broken heart in three days? Paper can stick back if it broke but my heart nothing can stick it back... Ya, can said that I am stupid that time... I believe to you, you really clever in acting... I am so admire you in that... I am lose!!! Happy??? I may god bless me to forget you as fast as possible. I believe god will understand me too. Ya the lord will forgive people who did something wrong,but I can't forgive myself. Maybe you will or you don't mind. I can't believe I cried in front of my mum too because of you. Ya, I am always strong in anythings and even how sad and how weak am I , I also won't cry in front of her. But this time, I can't do it. my mum comfort me to stop thinking you anymore and ignore you. I won't let her see me cry because of you again. I pressed delete and I wish to say goodbye to you. I want to start my new life here, ignore you maybe a good way... Maybe you really hate me that I went to let the whole world know your bad things. I just wanna tell you I really did nothing and even what had happened to you in camp I also don't know, how you betrayed me I also don't know. What a funny things? I love you but how you love me? If I really did somethings wrong to you, I just can apologize here. I asked myself 10 times? What i had did to made you betrayed me? I still can't understand. Is time to wake up, and I will tell myself that was a dream and it won't happen again.

I miss him~

Playing facebook in my lovely room... Drawing figure on my table... Listening song from my laptop... Don't know what happened to me in this afternoon, i miss him.... i miss him lot... Always see him got online in facebook and MSN or not. But he wasn't there, when click home in my facebook i saw his picture again. The tear wet my eyes again. The sweet memories come out in my mind again. He was a cute and good boyfriend that I had. He was the understanding boyfriend that I had. Now only know I haven forget him, why our ending will make me become like now? He seem like very happy and enjoy his life, but I'm not. I'm still tie myself in a coner. So wish to ask him "How are you now? Is it everything fine there?" So wish that to care him like last time. But I know it will not happen anymore. When I'm alone so wish he is here with me, when I'm sad wish he will cry with me and touch my face n eyes. When I'm happy, we can happy together. How about you? Did you think like that before? ^^

I HATE MYSELF!!!!!!

Don't know why.. I feel that I very hate myself now... Remember that I was top 3 in class when i was in primary school, but now look at my result???.. I went for piano class when i was young until F5, even now one song also can't play well... Went for guzheng class when i was in F2,when I want to play a song but the string break... Went for chinese calligraphy and painting when i was in F1, even now i also can't write my chinese name nicely in calligraphy... Went for violin class when I was in F4, even now how to play a song also can't... Went for art class in F5,find out that I love art and design, and won some prices in other college... NOW!!! look at me??? Break up in every relationship... Study in The One Academy of Communication Design. My dream college now, even now I can't do well in my artwork... I am really useless in this world................... AND I'm lost............... Where am I now?????

So HAPPY ~

YEAH~ Finally went to cut my hair and rebonding luh. New look now , but mummy said very weird wor and looks like small girl... She suggests my hair like last time better. But I don't want, because I wanna change a new look. Hehe after cutting I felt happy alot. Don't know why, I like my childish style now...^^ hehe looks younger than my sister already...

Home sweet Home~

Raining heavily outside. Song of rain outside my window. The cold wind blowing in to my lovely room. Made my room freezing. Time passed so fast, one semester had finish in a short three month, talked with mum dad and aunt just now. Cried in front of them, they comfort me to be strong, no one can help me in this situation. God please bless me forget every things that happened in this 3 month. And please forgive me what i had did. Wish i can stand up straight again as last time. Felt better after crying in front of them, felt better after they comfort me, felt better after their advice. No one can help me, I need to wake up and do somethings now. Everyone knows that I can do it. And they really understand I am strong by the way, but I have no confident. I need to find it back in this short three month. I know I can do it. YA!!! Only ME can help myself. I will be back...

Time really passed so FAST!!!

One week almost finish... Still gt one more day then i can relax a bit. But not totally can relax all because still need to take exam .. HAIZ~ feel better after talk with mum and sis... Now the only way i can do one is study hard and don't thnik a lot of stupid things again. No suffer in relationship, No suffer in Friendship ,No suffer in Study, No suffer in Money. GAMBATTE!!! Don't think so much oo....

Quite a SAD DaY!!!!

Didn't have sunny sky. Didn't have blue sky. Didn't have confident.Didn't have mood to class too...Too sad that you said that to me. I really hate your attitude, WHAT THE???? Many things happened, i was in call with Bryan. And i post status to Raymond and asked him where he is? Because I can't see him online. He sms me , and I told him I beh tahan, really wanna to kill myself already. HAIZ really stress here that time many things haven settle now. Raymond non stop called me in skype and found me in MSN. Hang Xing and Jia Ying very worry me that time.But i put busy and I was away and having my Phone. I cried again. no mood to smile at all. Thanks Bryan to make me happy when I need him. The door suddenly knock, Jim and Shen were outside. What happened??? Really scare them already that time... But feel happy that they came and see me. I locked myself in my room the whole day. Din't came out at all... RUSHING assignment... MISSING someone... WANNA someone can give me a hug... WANNA someone can feel my heart now. I watched a movie to relax myself after my class but i cried again. Because think him back. I really cannot watch romantic movie anymore, because I will cry again..............