Between of us.

姐姐说：人生就如钢琴上的黑白键盘。 每当一个音符在跳动时，都代表着不同的情感和感觉。 88个黑白键盘让我们充满着快乐，伤心，幸福，希望和色彩的人生。。。

我说：人生就如眼前的一张白纸，每当你给它画上还是写上，都代表着不同的情感和感觉。5颜6色的颜色及黑白两色都让我们充满色彩，快乐，伤心，悲惨，幽默，残忍，幸福，寂寞等等的人生。

每个人有不同的感觉与情感，也有不同的方法来表达人生。

人生是充满希望的，无论是病人，穷人，残障人士都在等待着希望。

就算社会有那么的可怕，我们也不能那么的容易放弃眼前的希望。

再次的掉下去了！

你的出现，让我无法控制自己。

没那么的多机会再次见你，让我天天思念你。

思念你傻乎乎可爱的样子。

思念你双眼迷人的眼睛。

思念你笑容可爱的样子。

想知道你还在这吗？

你再次的出现，又动摇了我的心❤。

真得很想告诉你，我真的好想你啊。

你知道吗？

Nowadays~

What am I doing nowadays?

Sometimes I am really confuse to know what am I doing.

Sometimes everything not just using thinking and really can make it happen.

But this week I end up one project that I gave myself, because I don't wish to waste time.

I am wonder am I doing this is a right way and wrong.

I don't care people that doesn't support me, I am trying my best to do that.

Because I know everything should try and learn for the lesson.

This few days, I watched a movie called 《团圆》 is a hong kong drama.

It made my memories back from last time, this memories not a good and happy memories.

And it isn't a family memories, this memories made me though back the thing had happened to me one year ago.

I know I am giving myself a excuse, I know I should face it and not just running away the problem.

This few days, my temper really weird, I will suddenly don't wish to talk to my family.

I know that I am changing, because I have my new life in Sunway that living alone and sometime seldom talk to people.

Even my best friend kit yan and kit mei also knew it, I had change since I went to KL.

Everything will change, human, environment even the person who love you.

However the time need to go too.

And I need to be tough and strong to fight for my future.

God bless.

Furious!!!!!!

F***!!!! I wouldn't like to scold rude word here.

But I really really angry about that.

Why you all always last min only let me know.

Why always happened this fucking shit stuff .

Damn it...

Ask me how to settle it?

Tell me?

Searching!!!

I am searching what I wanna do now.

Confuse!!! confuse!!! confuse!!!

Even having a break now, but I still can feel the heavy stress that make me can't breath.

Finally that I know I am lost now.

Where am I? Where should I start from here?

Am I starting to run or I still keep walking and standing here？

Last night can't sleep well and even I sleep I fall into a scary dream.

Dream a lot of stuff that I thinking to do.

It was a nightmare.

I really need someone to guide me now.

Having semester break now again.

Don't know why I feel very stress.

I suppose distress now, but I din't feel anything now.

Mum told me if I register PTPTN, I can't oversea after graduate.

But what can I do?

This is my only way I can do for myself.

Is 240 now, I can't sleep now.

In this semester, I found out myself is so scary?

What am I doing?

What happened to me?

I really wish to know.

I feel that I am changing and change a lot.

Change to very scary, I totally can't recognize myself already.

I really need someone guide me and I need someone talk to me.

A love will harm you.

Don't know why, you make me worry about you.

I saw your pain from your heart.

But you don't want to tell people about that.

Will you feel happy?

Some day, I try to make you smile , play with you , make you happy because I don't wish you sad and emo like last time.

Some told me about you loving chasing her.

Ya, I can see it and you already know she rejected you, but why you still want to force yourself to make her love you?

Love can't force.

I know that call love,but I really don't wish you gave people said you are stupid and so on.

I feel so sad and pain about that, because you are my friend.

I hope you can stop it, and of cause I don't wish you to unhappy again.

If you feel want to tell others about your secret, I will always here for you.
Just out your word. Let me get into your world.

Semester break again soon.

Already get in to my course major.

This is the short semester and it really rush for every subject that I take in this semester.

Every semester need to go through a lot of things and learn a lot of different things like moral, attitude on assignment and etc.

Feel very happy in this semester, wondering why also.

I don't wish to happen same thing like last semester.

I am trying to open minded and relax myself here.

Want to be a open- minded designer.

I already came back from Sunway, feel distress here... super and super distress here.

Relax, without stress.

Ya, sometime stress make people move , but my stress make me feel like dying.

Can't breathe at all. OMG!!!!

So what I did in this few days?

I went to bought some snack here to bring back to Sunway tomorrow.

Go back again, and stress again... scary...

The life there is really really scary isn't because of human there because I already use to it.

Is because my assignment. My lovely Simon ( assignment).

Many people thought study design is just a very simple things.

NO~ they are wrong, imagine if we din't have any idea for out artwork, where are we going to vomit out?

Idea will kill us. OKOK!!!

Open-minded, don't care what people said.

Wohoo~

Went out at midnight with a bicycle.

Wah... That not cool seriously. Every time I will very nervous when I cycle with my course mate in the big road outside our garden. They live so far away from our college and they need a bicycle to class, otherwise they will late to class... Every time when I was at their house, they will always go out and some time no choice I need to follow. Because of some issue. And that issue is scary too, some time I don wish to happen and it happen. Today is Friday, Pyramid is a very scary place when midnight. I was so scare that I was cycled with my mate and a lot of people drunk there, they drive very fast and some of them don't even see us. Or maybe the bicycle is too tall for me too so I can't break some times. I can't imagine if I have an accident here what will happen going on... Just don't think too much and think positive...

I think I'm jealous?

I know I am not a guy in our family.

I just a little girl, and can't speak out sometime.

But I already use to it.

What to do?

They don't accept what girl opinion.

OK. Fine!!!

But why always I am the last one who get it?

But why so unfair?

But why always I am the last one?

But why always I am the loser!?

But why always I use people's old thing?

Why?

I don't want to be a loser anymore!

I am not a rubbish bin!!!

I am not that kind and friendly anymore!

Maybe that call jealous!!!

But if you all don't wish to have a girl in your family.

PLEASE DON'T BORN ME OUT!!!!!!

You know what?

I always act that I'm happy, friendly,nothing,don care and nice in front of you all.

I feel I am so tired.

Sorry, I am not that happy and good ok?

Start now, if you all don respect me, then I am fine.

I won't respect you all too loh....

This is what you all want right?

OK... I understand what should I do now.